The day began well today. I was pretty much looking forward to seeing positive things in future that i totally forgot that its mother's day today till i got sms from friends asking me to wish my mother. (what could make it get worse?)
I had been trying to expect the best - Prepare for the worst - Capitalize on what comes and make an honest effort to improve on yesterday that i totally forgot about today. Besides working on my projects, i had some more priorities to finish. By the time i could finish them, it was afternoon and i was exhausted. It so happened that today me and my mother had a historic fight. We never fought like this before (psst.. we fight normally like any mother and daughter would. but this time it went a little overboard. There have been times where people have asked us "u both NEVER fight is it?" and we silently smile at each other)
Then, i began to think about the opinion i have about my mother-
A taunter to make me rebelliously succeed, and an unconditional lover to keep me on hold within normal limits.
Its her taunts that makes me rebellious and successful- so she aint no enemy- even if she is i need her.
And of all things, i dont want her to change.
At the end of everything, i asked myself "is this what it means to love"
Finally i cooled the situation by getting her an ice cream after a hot day.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
The Bold Dreamer
Its my independence day!!! how? my exams are Finally over :P
well it has always been such that i get so tired to even implement any few of the million things i think to do.
But this time i have really beatiful dreams- dreams ive never dared to dream.
may be i ve now dared because i am a grown up- a matter of fact arises within me "i am responsible of my own well being"
I have never been deprived of any freedom practically by my mother- but perhaps this freedom which i expect to get is like some liberation- a liberation as per me is a beautiful mix of happiness and freedon- that is doing things i like AND liking things i do. today is the first holiday, and i ve done one top priority yesterday already.
The best thing that i like about this new milestone is that i ve not noted down things that i want to do- allthough the number of things are even more this time. but they are all well registered in my mind. i ve never felt this happy that my dreams become my decisions.
I intend to achieve things that the superlative me might not be able to. (i compare myself to a superlative me- because i dont like being compared to someone else. comparing self to others and achieving that makes a person a "wannabe")
One of my main mission is to start singing again- something i abandoned long back. (presently singing ae aerthein aashiqui- Guru)
Coming to movies- i ve never seen more than one movie a year in a theatre because my mother never likes that atmosphere. it dint bother me much since i realized that she has her own rights to have her own likes and dislikes. and i ve not bothered much because i was always on an impression that its a waste of time. but some movies have proved that wrong. some movies have really insipred me. One such movie which i am taking as an inspiration and running ahead is Guru- by Mani Rathnam. The movie was released somehere in 2006, and i ve seen that in 2010- better late than never. (speaking about movies, i ve otherwise seen movies to understand the jargons of chennai folks- coz their talks are all based on movie dialogues! and it has been tough for me to actually get the context of their copy pasted sentences)
my interest in dreaming and to work to get it right comes from there.
I have a big project in hand that i am working on- for which i have to do further projects to get it right. Its a tough task, but a bold dream that make a beautiful reality.
Never trust anything, but just observe the wa things are going to get the hold. Just following that , i get to hear the song "i have a dream" by ABBA.
A note to people who want to start dreaming big- a small note- dream big,, but make sure it makes sense to you, then to everyone around you. You have a right to dream and a responsibility to see it works well.
Happy Dreaming to my readers, and wish you good luck
well it has always been such that i get so tired to even implement any few of the million things i think to do.
But this time i have really beatiful dreams- dreams ive never dared to dream.
may be i ve now dared because i am a grown up- a matter of fact arises within me "i am responsible of my own well being"
I have never been deprived of any freedom practically by my mother- but perhaps this freedom which i expect to get is like some liberation- a liberation as per me is a beautiful mix of happiness and freedon- that is doing things i like AND liking things i do. today is the first holiday, and i ve done one top priority yesterday already.
The best thing that i like about this new milestone is that i ve not noted down things that i want to do- allthough the number of things are even more this time. but they are all well registered in my mind. i ve never felt this happy that my dreams become my decisions.
I intend to achieve things that the superlative me might not be able to. (i compare myself to a superlative me- because i dont like being compared to someone else. comparing self to others and achieving that makes a person a "wannabe")
One of my main mission is to start singing again- something i abandoned long back. (presently singing ae aerthein aashiqui- Guru)
Coming to movies- i ve never seen more than one movie a year in a theatre because my mother never likes that atmosphere. it dint bother me much since i realized that she has her own rights to have her own likes and dislikes. and i ve not bothered much because i was always on an impression that its a waste of time. but some movies have proved that wrong. some movies have really insipred me. One such movie which i am taking as an inspiration and running ahead is Guru- by Mani Rathnam. The movie was released somehere in 2006, and i ve seen that in 2010- better late than never. (speaking about movies, i ve otherwise seen movies to understand the jargons of chennai folks- coz their talks are all based on movie dialogues! and it has been tough for me to actually get the context of their copy pasted sentences)
my interest in dreaming and to work to get it right comes from there.
I have a big project in hand that i am working on- for which i have to do further projects to get it right. Its a tough task, but a bold dream that make a beautiful reality.
Never trust anything, but just observe the wa things are going to get the hold. Just following that , i get to hear the song "i have a dream" by ABBA.
A note to people who want to start dreaming big- a small note- dream big,, but make sure it makes sense to you, then to everyone around you. You have a right to dream and a responsibility to see it works well.
Happy Dreaming to my readers, and wish you good luck
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