The Insignificant New Year

This year is new enough for me to get into the technical aspects.
The feeling of 2012 has sunk in after about a whole month (yes, technically, 2 days left!)
This year is characteristic in our lives (mine, and the few friends of mine of my age).
It is called the "insignificant year of our lives". Like I had written in my previous post about crises, it seems that it is a part of the insignificance.

Last time I had quite a few things to say in the beginning and the end of the year. This year may or may not be a collective attempt to not curse our past.

This list of things would rather be for the happy moments of the insignificant year!

1. Work: Yes, now all of us are working, and we are so serious about it. Reason why I am serious about mine is because it promises to pay me to buy things I wanted, and financially support me for my insanity.At the moment, a beautiful camera is the driving force.

2. Traveling: You can never do too much of traveling. Having the energy, time, and money at a time to do anything is impossible. I decide to travel for many reasons, traveling does good things to me (has done bad things as well. But just that I ve learn't not to go on adventures without vaccination)

3. Reading: Learning is such a never ending process, and reading is the best way to learn. Very few people in existence are impressive speakers to impart anything worth remembering all life. Plus, reading proves to be a wonderful relaxation to the mind body and soul. This year, I am going to indulge in reading not just in English but also in French.

4. New Language: I am telling my friends how learning a new language gives you a new soul (I am not assuring you of any soul mate), and how wonderful it feels to be able to express yourself in a new dimension!
This year for, next on the cards is either Spanish or Arabic, whichever comes first. (French is my love, and I will continue to dedicate my work life only for French)

5. Fighting out things: All of us are upset about some one thing specific to our lives that is bothering us at our core. It is not easy to live with, but I think we can fight it out. I am going to fight out, and resolve things in life without waiting for help or company. My first step, I went shopping, and it has helped me make a kick start.

6. Living up to Dreams: Dreams and fantasies have been so integral in our lives till date, but somehow there are moments that make us abandon our dreams that define us in their own way. My list of dreams is ceaselessly long, and I doubt if I will be able to achieve all of them within this year. But if I make a start, nevertheless, I am sure I can tick off quite a few things in the list. (it is only human to want more )

7. Physical activities: Yes, we are all on an imbalanced side of health and weight now. For me physical activity is such a must not just for the good health of my physical body, but also for my mental body and emotional body. Who knows if I would really be able to play the sports I have been wanting to for long time. (let things reveal themselves gradually over the year (:

8. Meditation: We are letting life stress us out so much that physical activities just wont suffice !
I for one, should stop hyperventilating on useless things, and get serious about relaxation techniques.

9. Mistakes: To be bold enough to make mistakes, and learn from them to never repeat them again is a blessing. This year I hope to be bold enough to make new mistakes if that is what I should do to learn somethings. I have thankfully learn't lessons from my previous mistakes, and I wish I get to employ things this year well enough.

10. The special effects: I am going to be wearing my chef hat again, and start off making exotic dishes encore. It has been a while since I have let the masterchef side of me into the kitchen. I am going to note these details in french in my journal, and if it is turns out something worth reading, it will be shared.
I am going to get the guitar(my proud possession) out of the bag, and make an honest attempt to play it, and sing a few songs along with it.

11. Put up with morons with a pleasing smile: I have started on one. Every new day shows you a new moron. I am not going to expect seeing miracles (ahem ahem.. miracles can happen on anything), or wonderful people, but definitely going to grow up this year in handling them with some better maturity.
There are beautiful lessons that one would learn while doing this, and I shall share those details if the look worth sharing by the end of the year.

 By the end of everything, I am not perturbed if I would become a part of the cosmic dust in exactly a year from now. I am glad that I am in this state of mind.
Happy New year to one and all.. and wishing happy memories for the insignificant year to the ones of my age.

Mujhe Mil Jo Jaye Thoda Paisa

I generally have a habit of ending my posts mentioning the current track that is on my mind or playing on the player.
But this time, I am going to dedicate a whole post for this song. It has a beautiful nostalgia associated with it.

This song, was composed by Agosh, and was released somewhere in the 90s. It would come on MTV, and on i TV. And yes, the elders so detested us for watching those channels. (Seriously, things were not that bad back then.) So the wait for it to come on channels like Sony or Star would be a greater wait and pain.

There have been plenty of songs in the 90s that have taught us many things and entertained us better than the new ones. May be that is what makes them so special that we grew up listening to them. Music was not that easily available back then. You would have to ceaselessly try making STD calls to channels to play your favorite song, or buy an incredibly expensive video CD which would have a maximum of 10 songs. If budget was a problem, we had casette that would be used for recording all the new songs, and getting permission from parents to play music on the tape recorder would be an ordeal. Then came the rights to use the walkmen, but even then, budgeting was a problem with the ones which needed batteries.
There were several other things that made listening to music a memorable hobby. Now music has evolved from being a hobby to a part of life. I am glad about this change. Rather I am happy that I have been throughout this evolution.
So here is this song, one of my favorites, which reminds me of how we felt back then, and how we have made an effort to make changes that we actually dreamt back then.
Mujhe mil jo jaye thoda paisa. (If I d get some money)

If people still have this song on their iPOD or phone, they would certainly listen to it every month end or in the beginning of a new job/career. 
Life has beautifully changed and progressed. If you are a person who has not lived in the 90s, I hope this song inspires you to get over whatever complaints you have with your time now, and be the change you expect.
I would say that I live up to the changes I expected when I heard the song back then. Many of us have, and hope we inspire you all pretty well.
The song has English subtitles(if you don't understand Hindi), and it describes "all" the problems "we" had, and all what we expected in terms of financial life.

We Care And We Can't Help It!

I can certainly say that 90% of the problems in my life are because I care, and 10% because others don't care.
We women find million things to dislike in men in terms of their general nature, but they totally beat us in two things.
1 we care (let the second remain secret for a while now)

I am not yet sure if the caring part in us comes along with the inbuilt maternal instinct or if it just plain feminine, whatever it is, it exists in all of us, and every woman knows she suffers from it.
Things we care can be anything from our hair, our body, how we feel, how we smell, how we look, how we are looked at, how life works, how life doesn't work, and just everything but for "How life can still carelessly go on", and every bit of this can perturb us and we let it do so.

Caring for aspects in life that are of use or no use does not outweigh our characters of dynamism, or organization or just anything else which we blame men to not have, because men still live without all these simply telling "I don't care", and we on the other hand die every day, every possible moment because we care. Some of us die just trying to not care or losing the battle in trying not to care

Every strong, bold, confident, dynamic woman has a core inside that she protects. It is that core that we guard untouched. Sometimes hoping it tears itself apart when we can do nothing to destroy it, or at least not bother it exists. But it so deep within us, that we let it exist covered by immense hope that there would be some day in our life that we cared any less.

I wish I cared less for many things. Today's thoughts have been provoked by a lady who cared for me and told me "If you turn back and look at your life in the future, you will never find yourself perfectly going your way without making mistakes, and it is a natural process of going ahead."

I feel she was indeed right. I hope that these things, when I look back someday might be too insignificant to remember or just a lesson well learnt. But even while positively thinking about this, a part of me hopes that things might change that I would not need to care for the things that I actually care.

I am sure a lot of women associate yourself to this. Some can explain it well, many can't even on shouting out loud. I hope we all get over this someday.
Love and Peace !

Current track : Country roads - I used to sing this song when I was a kid in school. Brings back beautiful memories.