25 random things reloaded

I cant believe there are at least 25 things that have changed in me. hence writing down those things that have changed.
1 Biotech sucks. Big time. Cant believe that I loved it so much from childhood.
2 I no longer believe in remembering people I forgive. Theres no point u see. My memory space can be used up for better things to come ahead in life
3 the philosophical side of me is crazily living an awesome life.
4 my mind speaks totally different things now.
5 I m not interested in tagging anyone along with this. Coz at this time, I m no ways interested in knowing even 2 facts about anyone. It doesn’t matter.
6 coming online is such a waste of time. Life is calling. Gotta live out, and social networking sites suck the time out of my life.
7 books are heavenly. Not a moment could be called a waste of time, when I am with a book.
8 most important thing, art forms of dance, music and photography are attracting me way too much.
9 seriously decided that studying is way far better than attending an interview for a job that has nothing to do with my educational background.
10 the sole reason u d find me reading things related to life science is because I want to get rid off it as soon as I can.
11 I ve started believing in savings. Although quite a lot of disasters have happened, saving is good. Although it needs some sense and care.
12. although I haven’t saved up something great at the end of the day, I can at least have some courage to get myself some things…… (don't want to mention more stuff here now)
13 I no longer believe in speaking up to people. Not even my best friend, I d like to listen than do the talking
14 I miss the talkative me at times though.
15 I ve been feeling nostalgic, and regretting for things that I ve abandoned in my past.
16 I WILL sing. No matter who is around me, I will sing. I ve resumed singing, and it has something to do with my past again.
17 I WILL dance. No matter how I look. Many people I know like me dancing. I like do dance myself too. So why the hell hesitate?
18 my apetite is as low as ever. Perhaps its now a little less than bird feed.
19 my interest in cooking is not the same as it was. I cook very rarely now. I find better things to do in life. Now that I feel I ve mastered cooking, I want to concentrate on other things in life.
20 my passion to travel is on an all time high.
21 I regretted that I m jobless. But now I m happy I m not placed in a company where I d work on thing which will take me nowhere even after 5 years.
22 I agree that I am independent, but reality of life is that we are all interdependent. I ve realized that
23 opportunities come rarely, and when u get one, use it to ur best.
24 I don't believe in giving excuses for anything. neither do i like to accept them.
25 get busy living or get busy dying. and i m not born to die.

Sheesh!!!!I HAVE changed. Changed a lot since the time I first wrote 25 random things about me.

My mind again

A female i know is walking in front of me and says to my friend "i ve hated your group so much. you ve troubled me a lot!"
I say "OH! the feeling has been so very mutual!"
after about 5 minutes, she turns back and comes to hit me"did u just say that the feeling has been mutual?"
"did i just say it so loud that i ve been heard?" (feeling exactly like chandler bing)
now me and my mind voice
me: see she dint realise it was me who said it for about 5 minutes. should i have just said that and walked away? how would it have been?
mind: hit and run!

The Second Boot :P

For about 3 days my mom has been facing some kind of problem, where I am acting as her receptionist. Every phone call, she reminds me what I m supposed to say. This reminds me of a story that my father told me when I was a kid. Well not to me directly, he was telling my brother in front of me. In this story we have 2 characters living in two floors of an apartment. The one residing on the first floor is a drunkard, and returns home late. He throws his shoes so hard that it wakes the guy in the ground floor. One fine day this ground floor resident goes up to him and yells at him really bad. The next day, this man realizes the repercussion after throwing the first boot, but the next day, he faces it yet. “You *&^%^, you kept me on a hold all night, I couldn’t have a peaceful sleep not knowing when you would throw the second boot, and let me sleep.”Many a times, we keep ourselves hooked into a situation not knowing when the second boot would be thrown, which would have been safely placed in some corner. Oh yes, anyone of you concerned as to how my mother is now, here is my answer: With my help, the second boot has been placed in its place and she knows it :P

New Year Thoughts

2010! It’s the very first month, and the first new thinking of the year. I have been thinking of quite a few abstracts that I could define now. For most of these things take their definitions only by the way one perceives it. And the one looks at it, depends on how much they feel it means to them in their life. Here we go 10 abstracts that I define for the year.

1 Trust: the dirtiest abstract that u can lend on to someone. For trust, is the basic thing that you need to tell someone for them to cheat/ betray you.
2 Hope: not very enthusiastic about this. I have lost hopes in many things, but some parts of it still dwell in me. Thanks to Shaw shank Redemption, after I saw that movie, the way that line was delivered, well, may be I might try hoping for things. At least to get away from things if not get what I want. Let’s see how this works its way out.
3 Desire/ Ambition: desire is not meant to be thought over anytime after thinking of it the first time. Ambition is never to be forgotten from the first moment.
4 Love: a victorious feeling when the external wins over the narcissist. (Hasn’t happened yet.) and it will happen when you least expect it.
5 Sorrow: part of life. Learn from it or forget it. Don’t bother or let it bother you. It does its work of hurting you, once done, forget it, kick it hard and go on.
6 Decisions: make your own decisions for opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. Ultimately you are the one who is going to live with any decision made on some opinion. You don't just have a free will to make your decisions, but you also have a responsibility on yourself while making them
7 Dreams: a perfect time sucker. But yes, worth wasting time on it. It is at least better than wasting time on online social networking sites or pests. On a serious note, I believe that I have all the right to dream and should have the sense of not expecting everything to come true the way I want it.
8 Future: reminds me of what my preceptor taught me “we have forgotten out past, we are unaware of the future, lets live the present the way its is meant to be.” Besides some precise and short time planning, don't brood on it and waste your present.
9 Pleasure: pleasure is when I don't feel the anguish of sorrow, or get disturbed by anything that is not true. This is perhaps the New Year’s resolution.
10 Success: I read a line sometime before “It’s not a miracle to walk on a flowing stream of water or thin air, but walking well on the solid earth the way you have to is the real miracle” walking on the solid earth, balanced and poised, being independent without relying on anyone for anything is what I consider success to me.

stories cooking up! :P

this is another update post. It has been ages since i edited my novel. whenever i try to edit, i get further newer stories out of it. so that is in the most silent corner of the house.
The best news of this year, is that i ve written three short stories. it has been my long time desire to write things short and tell the whole thing with all twists and spices. Going to be uploading them in google docs sometime soon.

Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory
This came on my orkut home page as today's fortune a few days befre when i was totally upset about a few things that happened in my life.
I felt this line to be perfectly apt since the thoughts of how things turned bad and rose to cause a devastation really haunted me. And i was feeling that i have to go in search of happiness. What i should lose was the memory of things that happened, for i m not technically solely responsible. But cant help things set itself again.
I am happy that i am able to go on with things. This line means a lot. And now that it is stored here, i can happily keep updating my column there :)

Updates

Its october now, and the best thing of this month is that my best friend's birthday is on this month on the 10th of october. After a really long time we met and had good time together. Its 11th october now and i m awaiting for 10th october 2010. Shalini is the one libran whom i can trust even if the whole world ll turn against me. i used to think till recent that librans are actually intelligent people till i was decieved of that fact. so in my words, librans are headstrong and not level headed. shalini is an exception and means life to me. We had a good time meeting up school friends too.
I am having mid term vacations of almost a whole month and lots of work to do. most of the things out of budget, and some for which i have to reduce my sleep hours to 4 or 5 hours a day.
I will be able to get the other cameras ready for pics only after 22nd. One is ready as of now.
The myna birds have flown away. little eggs have hatched, and they grew up. i have their pics on flickr. although it is nowhere near perfection coz i took in the digicam since the nest was tooo small and built somewhere inside the branches.
Havent yet lost any considerable amount of weight. That also happens to fall in the schedule this time. hoping that a lot of things come out well.
Wont be able to go on the tour that the college will organize. Rather i would refuse that and store it to make it up for a nice trip with either shalini or shruti and suwarna anywhere.
this is almost it.