Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Career!!!!

Alright, I am here with news to confront!
i have shifted myself from biotech field to French!
The day i made this decision i was already a major and i knew my duties and responsiblities in life when i made this decision.
My main goal in this field happens to see myself as a professor, and on my way there, i will be interacting my level best with the language in every possible way. It will surely take me sometime to settle down and establish myself comfortably. It cannot be rapid and sudden and i will let it take its time. For no system in the existence can accept anything sudden.

Yesterday i was talking out to my baba brother about the sad and upsetting things at my end and i had french as my only solace to share some good piece of news from my end. this brother of mine is a tamilian like me who is from hubli/pune. he was very happy that i am doing a really good thing.
then we were talking about using the keyboard to write french online. then we were talking about the time somewhere in the 1970s where tamilians revolted against hindi. that bit of conversation did not let me sleep all night. it ignited that spark of thought in me as to how all it led me to trouble.
today on my way back home from classes, i spoke to an old lady in the apartment who is like a grandmother to me. i happened to tell her about french, and she was happy too. she was sharing some interesting facts from her side. and believe me she is a lady who ignites a forest fire of thoughts inside my head.
about my career option, i ve told about 12 people till now. 5 of them are people who are natives of chennai, and 3 of them are people who are not natives of chennai but kinda settled there for their own reasons. the rest are hyderabadis besides my baba brother. Everyone were really excited about my decision. One of the hyderabadi was ready to sponsor me a trip to France for me to explore more and more of it. obviously these people knew what i could do, and knew that what i have decided makes sense.
B-U-T.... 5 out of 5 chennai native folks have reacted bad and looked down at me wierd.
few of the things that i was said:

1 whats the point? why cant you do something like Mcom instead?
2 why do you want to study higher?
3 what on earth can you do with french?
4 are u nuts?

last but not the least, the question that shook my core and made me lose my sleep for about 3 nights, and peace for a few days (i am yet to recover from the shock of that question though)

* what will you do if you are unemployed at the end of this?

this question came in a bombarding way, and it shot me at my core that i really could not answer what i wanted to.
Today my conversation with my new grandma has me feel so confident. Believe me a lady in her 60s, knows so much about what all one can do with a foreign language.
i realized that how i can let my whole life radiate itself with french. well, apparently she says that one day french is going to take over english, and her grandson is learning french at the age of 3!
this person here is also a tamilian. But it was really shocking that tamilians in chennai are so shallow, dim and rigid. why is it that one cant think of using any talent well.
she told me atleast 15 things that i dint know myself what all i can do with french.
Being a tamilian, i know quite a few languages, where my first language in school was hindi, i enjoy speaking in hindi too.
But it is sad that a Tamilian in general is VERY rigid towards exploring a new language.
I am convicing myself that a tamilian who cannot accept his/her own national language hindi can never accept a foreign language.
At this point i am reminded of a wonderful story that i came across when i was doing my degree when we were talking about lateral thinking, we were told about a person got successfully well placed when he gave 87 uses of a pencil!!!!!! 

No matter what profession one chooses, you must give your heart and soul to it and do it well.
My English professor told us this you can even chose to be a sweeper. but make sure that whenever someone thinks of cleanliness, they think of you.
This is a marked difference in the mentality of a hyderabadi i see compared to people of other places.
despite the many hyderabadi jokes where i d associate myself with, i am proud to be a broad minded, sensible, and an independent thinker- A Hyderabadi!!!!
What am i going to do now?-
i wont give a damn to people who don't value my deep inner likings, and will go ahead with french as it is the only solace i now have in my life.
so now, i m in love with my profession!

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