Pain

if i were to define pain in my own words in a dictionary style, i would say, "a manifestation of stress in the physical body "
but theres a lot beyond that. i ve attended very few discourses, and was compelled to listen to some from people who considered themselves philosophically great. i am not complaining about them here.
Whenever i d sit on a meditation, or intend to ask something in return for my prayers, or do some kind of sadhna, i land up in pain (i m not very ashamed to agree that i cannot squat for more than an hour. beyond that, you d find me struggling with my legs).
sometimes, i experience pain in my head, or stomach or legs on anywhere when i d least expect a pain. and whenever i d get pain, i forget everything. i forget the fact that i m a sophisticated being, an educated idiot, or a cultured girl, or rather most importantly my schedule for that hour/day or sometimes, i even forget what i actually want.
now in the case of pain interrupting my prayer/sadhna. theres obviously a reason when i m doing it (or rather anyone for the matter of fact. if not anything atleast some mental peace. but no one asks just for mental peace all the time)
so when i am doing something like that, and get attacked by pain, my first request from God happens to be "get me free from this pain before i continue"
I realized what i am doing quite late. so in one of the prayer session in a temple where i was sitting amidst several people, i was attacked by pain again. i was silent. i decided not to "talk to God" about my pain. i was wriggling. Like a worm, a maggot, and couldnt help it. i eventually lost my entire concentration. At the end of it, i was not as happy as i would have otherwise been. generally such embarassing situations happens in public. but sometimes happens even when u are alone.
Leave alone public gatherings, when u dont particularly think of "asking" anything from anyone, when pain attacks you, youd forget what you are supposed to be doing that hour/ day. its like a repercussion for doing nothing harmful. (or sometimes for really having done it)
here is something that i kinda derived to have the pain and yet not let it bother your work.
first of all you sit quiet. in this silence you now exist with your pain. its only you and the pain. and declare to yourself that you no longer take responsibility of that pain. and that it plays no role in teaching you anything. declare that your mind and spirit does not accept the pain and they shall support you for what you want to do. . Try to be in a state of realization that the pain does not define you, or your efficiency or state of mind.
this should help you atleast till you finish your work.
*DISCLAIMER: i do not preach or support you to stop taking medicines of any sort. so pharmaceutical people stay away. :P